Daddy and I got married July 15, 2000 we had loved each other since we met in August of 1993. We were so thankful to finally be 1 in this world and to have your wonderful sister Maddy who was 3 when we got married in our life. We wanted to desperately to have you when Maddy was still little so she would have a sibling to grow up with through life. Life was good we bought our first house afew years after we got married, we had everything the "American dream" said we should have we were just missing you. We found out later life had may challenges we had to make it through, we had to change some things before our lives would be ready to bring you into it.
In 2004 I had gastric bypass surgery because I was going to die if I continued on the path that I was on I was almost 400lbs. I could not walk down the street without pain, go grocery shopping without thinking everyone was looking at me because I was so obese or buy a decent pair of shoes because my feet were so large.
My surgery was not without problems. While I was on the operating table when the doctor's thought all was good they ran dye through the reconstructed area of my stomach and found I had a leak where that had worked. They had to open me up all the way to repair the problem. What was supposed to be a 3 hour surgery ended up being the longest 7 hours your Daddy and Grandma ever had to endure. The doctors did not come out to tell them what was wrong and they thought they were going to loose me. After the surgery Daddy and Grandma were escorted to ICU where I had tubes coming out of every opening one could imagine and a breathing tube down my throat, again Daddy and Grandma thought they would never see me again.
Daddy couldn't stay that night so he had to go home. The next day he endured the worse ice storm our area had had in several years they shut down the freeway right after he go on it to drive to Portland. It took Daddy 3 hours to make it to me. Daddy stayed in the hospital the whole time I was there they gave mommy a suit of her own and brought in an extra bed so he could be with me. The hospital's care was little to be desired. Daddy was so diligent, he would wash my hair and clean me up every day. He made sure I had all the things I would need when I returned home from the hospital. Your Daddy is and was the most amazing man ever created.
I came home after the hospital and with much support from your Daddy I lost over 200 lbs in the next year.
One challenge down one to go. In 2005 Daddy all of a sudden started getting dizzy loosing his balance when he would close his eyes and being in allot of pain. He had all the symptoms of small cell lung cancer so the Doctor ordered an MRI. We had the MRI on a Friday and that weekend was the longest weekend of our lives so worried as to what the diagnosis would be. We thought the worst as cancer runs in Daddy's family. One night I was in the shower and I started to cry out as I was so fearful I was about to loose the love of my life and would have no physical evidence of the love we shared. I began begging "Dear Lord you have given me the most wonderful husband and if you take him from me I will have nothing to show for our beautiful marriage."
The Lord heard me loud and clear. We found out on the following Monday that Daddy had to have neck surgery that he did not have cancer but that he had disks compressing on his spinal cord. We were relieved to say the least. I took time off work so I could care for Daddy and while we were home one day I went to the pharmacy to pick up Daddy's prescriptions. While I was there I realized that I had not had my cycle, I bought a pregnancy test, came home took the test but left it sitting on the counter as I had taken many before with no positive outcome so I forgot all about it. Later that evening when I was helping Daddy into the shower I glanced over at the test that I had forgotten about and it was showing positive...What?? Really?? Now way, I thought as Daddy about passed out. After Daddy finished cleaning himself up I ran right to the store and got 2 more tests, They immediately turned positive!!! Wow! I was finally going to have the baby we always wanted but had been convinced would never come to us.
I went to the doctor the following week and found I was 5 weeks the ultra sound showed you still in the egg sack. The doctor I had at the time then said I had a heart shaped uterus and this could cause a problem that I may not be able to carry you to term. This was not the news We wanted to hear. We still got excited and put the possibility of loosing you out of our minds. We of course went out and started to buy everything we would need to bring you home. Time went on and one day after I got off work Daddy and I were in the grocery store when all of a sudden I felt very wet. I went to the bathroom thinking I had just wet my pants but I was not prepared to find what I did...blood and lost of it! I ran out of the bathroom to Daddy who was standing waiting with a cart full of groceries we had to still pay for, I told him what was happening and we rushed to the car to get to the hospital. One the way there I called my doctor who told me to go to ER but that if I was loosing you nothing could be done. We then got to the hospital and the triage nurse tried to tell us to have a seat in the waiting room that if I was loosing you there is nothing they could do. Daddy was not OK with the response, he got in the nurses face and proceeded to threaten the hospital if they did not get me into the back ASAP. The nurse called security but it worked as they had me in a room within the next 5 minutes.
While there we had an ultra sound and found your heart beat was very strong, my cervix was still closed and the ER doctor told me that if I went home and stayed off my feet that we would have a chance at keeping you.
I went home, fired the first doctor I had and found a new one. The next day while I was home Daddy came to check on me while he was on his lunch break everything seemed to have calmed down and the bleeding was minimal. After Daddy left I had to go to the bathroom I got up and my heart left my body, I started to cramp and I was passing clots literally the size of apples. I panicked started to cry and I started to put all the stuff that was coming out into a plastic bag. I called Daddy we went to ER again this time we were rushed right to the back. They examined the con tense of the bag and found that you were not in it so they did another ultra sound and found there you were still safe and sound heart beating strong as ever, and my cervix was still closed.
While we were there we had a new ER doctor who read the results of the ultra sound from the day before, he advised us that I had a Subcorionic Hemotoma. Basically it was a blood clot that was between the uterine wall and the sack you were in. It was larger than you were and that the probability of carrying you passed 25 weeks was grim. The doctor told us again to go home and stay off my feet but no answers on how we could combat this evil thing that threatened to take you from us.
After we got home we were very sad and I looked up the diagnosis online and found that there was a high morality rate. I also found that some women had taken baby aspirin to help thin the blood. I went to our new doctor the next day she started me on an aspirin treatment and we had weekly ultra sounds to watch the hemotoma. You eventually grew larger than the hemotoma and it started to shrink. We finally were able to be happy about you and not worry if you were going to make it. At 27 weeks I was let off bed rest as you had reached the point of viability.
We were finally excited again, we put your little room together and enjoyed watching you develop via the ultra sounds. We were able to have one for every week of your little developing life from 12 weeks on.
On November 16, 2006 Daddy, Grandma and myself went out to dinner to Red Robbin, while we were there my water broke. We rushed to the hospital, I was not in allot of pain and after afew hours they gave me drugs to speed the process along. While in labor it became a bit touch and go as your heart rate would decelerate so they kept flipping me over turning me every which way to keep your heart rate up. It was a very long and painful 11 hours. I finally was able to get an epidural to block the pain, once I got that I went from 7-10cm in 20 minutes. the doctor was called and before she could even get dressed you were crowning. I pushed 10 times and you were then finally here!! they handed you to me and you immediately pooped on me. You were so tiny and skinny 6lb 9oz and 19" long. Your skin was all wrinkled as you didn't have much fat to fill it in. You were not all white and bloody you were pink and looked like you had just been swimming.
All of your infant tests came back normal you were just a little jaundice.
Mommy didn't like the nurses at the hospital so once you showed signed of feeding well I convinced the doctor to let us go home. It was 24 hours after I had you. I had no problem feeding you and the jaundice went away in good time. You were the perfect baby you slept allot we were so excited to have you home. Our family was finally complete.
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