Today I find myself sad. Not because there is anything major happening but because I find it so hard to go back to work.
Life before Michael was predictable. My husband and I had the ability to have our work schedules be the same so that we could have time together. Finding out that we were going to have a baby changed all that. Having a baby with special needs made it necessary to work opposite days to have Michael at home with one of us as much as we could.
Now my husband works during the week and I work the weekends. I dearly miss the time we used to have. We still do have family time in the evening and we make the most of it. By the time family time is over, dinner made, baths done, bed time battles one, toys picked up, we are so exhausted there is not much left to give each other.
We keep telling ourselves “just hang on babe when Michael starts going to school full time we can get back on track.” Have a “normal” life again.
I fear at times we will never have a “normal” life again.
I am so thankful that my husband and I had a good base prior to Michael coming along. Currently the divorce rate among couples who have children with special needs is in the 90th percentile. We did separate for a period of time but within a couple months realized we loved each other to much to let these challenges ruin a good thing.
Al, you are my husband, my safe place, my best friend, my love, and we together are great. We have over come many obstacles in this life and we are not done yet. Life with you has never been a boring journey. Our life has been full of hills and valleys. Right now we are in a valley but we will one day reach the top of the hill.
I love you my man, my husband, my best friend.
I will hang on
Life before Michael was predictable. My husband and I had the ability to have our work schedules be the same so that we could have time together. Finding out that we were going to have a baby changed all that. Having a baby with special needs made it necessary to work opposite days to have Michael at home with one of us as much as we could.
Now my husband works during the week and I work the weekends. I dearly miss the time we used to have. We still do have family time in the evening and we make the most of it. By the time family time is over, dinner made, baths done, bed time battles one, toys picked up, we are so exhausted there is not much left to give each other.
We keep telling ourselves “just hang on babe when Michael starts going to school full time we can get back on track.” Have a “normal” life again.
I fear at times we will never have a “normal” life again.
I am so thankful that my husband and I had a good base prior to Michael coming along. Currently the divorce rate among couples who have children with special needs is in the 90th percentile. We did separate for a period of time but within a couple months realized we loved each other to much to let these challenges ruin a good thing.
Al, you are my husband, my safe place, my best friend, my love, and we together are great. We have over come many obstacles in this life and we are not done yet. Life with you has never been a boring journey. Our life has been full of hills and valleys. Right now we are in a valley but we will one day reach the top of the hill.
I love you my man, my husband, my best friend.
I will hang on
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